I just really enjoy her company. She is the best part of my day, of my life, the greatest gift God has given me.
But I haven't forgotten the rest of my life.
She is not everything to me. I also have my other interests. I have other important people in my life. Other people and things bring me joy, excitement, amusement.
I don't want to give up my job any time soon. I enjoy what I do for a living and I want to continue to do it - even though it takes me away from Alessandra!
I look forward to opportunities to spend time with Ryan. As much as I adore my Alessandra, I adore my Ryan too and I need opportunities to talk to him, joke with him, flirt with him.
I already filed vacation letters with the Court and I'm planning to travel and sight see in at least two other cities in 2015. I want to continue to explore the world.
The fact that I earned the very important title of mommy doesn't require that I give up my intellectual life, my role as a wife, my sense of adventure. I was a whole person before Alessandra and I am a whole person now. She comes before everything else and I will always make whatever sacrifices I need to make to see her succeed - without a second thought. But being a good mom does not require that I give up every other part of my identity. I honestly believe that she will benefit from having a mom who has her own sense of identity, apart from just seeing herself as mommy.
Not everyone gets to be a mommy. I don't take it for granted. I pray so much more now that Alessandra is here - I have a reason to be thankful a thousand times a day and I have someone to focus prayerful love on a thousand times a day. She matters so much to me. She brings me incredible joy, worry, strength. What happens to her affects me to my very core. But I need to be a whole, balanced, healthy person. I choose to be that.
Mama ready for work and Alessandra ready to go to Grandma Gosewehr's house:
That's right. Ryan & I went out to dinner on our anniversary & left Alessandra with Hernandez Grandparents - even though she was only 6 weeks old!
Holding Alessandra while Daddy makes her laugh:
My precious Baby Bear.
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